Top 5 Books of 2019

2019 was a big year of reading for me. I read 45 books! While I wrote a little blurb about every single one, I thought that it might be a little bulky to post all of them, so I decided to post a Top 5 (with a few honorable mentions.) Going forward, I’ll attempt to post them monthly so that it doesn’t get so unwieldy. Anyway, here are my Top 5 Books of 2019.

Dream Land: The True Tale of America’s Opiate Epidemic by Sam Quinones

This book is an eye-opening look into the growing Opiate Epidemic of the last 30 years.  It splits its focus between the American medical establishment and the Mexican drug cartels.  It shows the way that unethical marketing and medical practices lead to the overprescribing of opiates to many areas of the US, and how this built an enormous market for heroin traffickers from Mexico.  It also documents the ingenuity of these heroin traffickers, building their business to be efficient and avoid the heat of the DEA.

If anything, this book doesn’t go far enough in condemning the pharmaceutical industry and medical establishment for causing the opiate epidemic.  It does point strongly to them being the problem but doesn’t mount much of an ethical critique of the systems that allowed this to occur and allowed the pharmaceutical billionaires to make off like bandits while countless Mexicans went to jail for taking advantage of the market that was created.  I appreciate that this was probably a conscious journalistic choice, but it saddens me that many people will read this and not look deeper into the systemic issues this exposes.

Still Life with Woodpecker by Tom Robbins

This book probably wins my best fiction (that I read this year) award.  Delightfully funny and witty, with an amusing philosophical bent.  Tells the story of an unlikely love affair between a princess and an outlaw with principles.  Not sure what more to say; I highly recommend it.

Orthodoxy by G.K. Chesterton

I was turned onto this by a brief mention of it by Slavoj Zizek in one of his talks.  This is, nominally, a defense of Christian Orthodoxy by G.K. Chesterton, but in reality, it’s a very liberal version of orthodoxy which he defends.  You see, he isn’t so much defending the orthodox church structures or ideas, as the orthodox philosophies.  He makes the case, fairly compellingly, that Christian theology is quite different in nature from the theology of most other world religions.  And, in making the comparison, he comes to the conclusion that he prefers the world created by a Christian theology, that he finds in it the most truth.

I can’t say that he’s converted me into a good God-fearing Christian with this book, but he has convinced me that I find certain aspects of Christian theology appealing and compelling.  A quote from this book has even become one of my mantras.

The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz

I really liked this one!  The essential idea is that embedded in language is the ability to change the world (he calls them spells).  As we grow up, people are constantly using this magic on us to tell us about ourselves and the world.  We are constantly accepting things people say and making agreements with ourselves about the way the world is.  Ruiz wants us to examine all of these agreements and realize that many of them may be making our lives into hell.  He proposes four agreements we can make with ourselves to start rewriting our perception of ourselves and reality.

  1. Be impeccable with your word
  2. Take nothing personally
  3. Don’t make assumptions
  4. Always do your best

I read this at the same time I was listening to a series of podcasts on Structuralism in philosophy, and together they rang really true.  Our whole reality is structured by language.  Only by understanding the way it creates our world, can we begin to change our world for the better.

Trust Me, I’m Lying by Ryan Holiday

This book will make you look at the world differently.  You will become skeptical of the worldview the news presents to you and you will begin to see advertising in everything.  It documents the way marketers exploit the modern blog-driven media and draws many parallels to the age of the yellow press.  I highly recommend this one.

Honorable Mentions:

Capitalist Realism by Mark Fisher

Y: The Last Man by Brian K. Vaughan and Pia Guerra

King Warrior Magician Lover by Douglas Gillette and Robert L. Moore

2018 Reading List Review

On the Road by Jack Kerouac

Kerouac’s tales detail a type of freedom that has been lost in modern America.  He hitchhikes around the country (now illegal), stows away in train cars (already illegal, but accepted), and sleeps outside or on whatever couch/bed he can find.  People living simpler lives are respected for the hardships they endure. People who don’t fit into the system can at least live unaccosted in the margins.  Now we denigrate them.  Some may read this book as the chronicles of a homeless cretin, but I really think we should use it to reflect on some of the choices we’ve made as a society in the past 60 years and ask if we really like the direction we’ve moved in.

The Martian by Andy Weir

An enjoyable sci-fi novel based on realistic real-world science.  The main character is amusingly snarky and has an inhuman composure in the face of the unlikely odds of survival.   I wouldn’t say this was amazing or revolutionary, but it was a fun read.  I still need to go watch the movie…

A Tale for the Time Being by Ruth Ozeki

A writer finds the diary of a young Japanese-American girl, living in Japan, washed up on the beach and becomes invested in her story.  This well-written novel takes a critical look at some aspects of modern Japanese culture, and plays with conceptions of time, both within a single culture and with our expectations as readers.  The author doesn’t shy away from difficult topics like sex work and suicide and tells a very moving and compelling story.

The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin

The Obelisk Gate by N.K. Jemisin

The Stone Sky by N. K. Jemisin

A truly amazing fantasy series!  Very inventive writing and storytelling with an interesting world and magic system (if you like to nerd out about that kind of thing).  Without giving too much away, this world is very geologically unstable and the characters are frequently struggling just to  survive the wrath of the earth itself.  This book, written by a woman of color, does a great job of centering female characters in a way that male writers often  fail to.  Also, +1 for bisexual and poly characters.  And as a bonus, it’s actually a finished series!

Dharma bums by Jack Kerouac

I was reading The Way of Zen in a park at the beginning of this year, and a man there mentioned this book to me.  That’s actually what initially prompted me to read On the Road earlier in the year after researching Kerouac.  I finally made it to this one, and it appealed to me in much the same way as On the Road.  This one details Kerouac’s friendship with Japhy Ryder (Gary Snyder), a much more centered character than Dean Moriarty (Neal Cassady) from On the Road.  With that comes a bit more of Kerouac’s relationship with Buddhism and a bit less of the loose cannon nihilism of Cassady. 

If I were going to recommend where to start with Kerouac, I’d probably say On the Road, but I enjoyed this one quite a bit as well.

The Wisdom of Insecurity by Alan Watts

Alan Watts delves into some basic Zen metaphysics, stripping away much of the Zen trappings.  Being comfortable with insecurity, with chaos and change, leads to an ironically more secure position than someone who focuses solely on bringing security to their lives.  I would recommend this in the same way I’d recommend The Power of Now.  Stop grasping, be in touch with the world around you and don’t get lost in your fears and anxieties about change.

The Way of Zen by Alan Watts

I wrote about this one when I read it last year.  I chose to reread it as I was thinking a lot about the ideas of Zen in the context of my own mental health this year.  A bit harder to get through than The Wisdom of Insecurity, it still has some applicable insights.

How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie

Another reread, I took this one pretty slowly, reading just a chapter here and there in an effort to digest the material a bit more fully.  I think this is going to be a book I return to again and again as intimacy and social anxiety are things I often struggle with.  This just has so many good lessons on how to be a friendly and charming person that it feels like refreshing myself from time to time will always be beneficial.

Benjamin Franklin’s Autobiography

This is probably the (auto)biography I’ve heard recommended the most when people talk about biographies.  Franklin was a civic-minded, industrious man, who truly worked from first principles when approaching the question of how to live one’s life. 

When reading the sections where he introduces public services, I was struck by how detached our taxes have become from a sense of the common good.  Franklin repeatedly sees a concrete problem in his city/neighborhood, then goes to the people affected by the problem and shows them the advantages to be gained from addressing the problem and convinces them to pay a tax to solve it.  This is how our government should function, but clearly doesn’t hold up at scale. 

When people imagine the “protestant work ethic” as a positive thing, I think they must be talking about his life.  But really he just approached his life in a systematic way and had a strong drive to improve himself and the community in which he lived.  I think our modern society has been perverted into forgetting about the importance of the community-mindedness of work. We’re divorced from the meaning of work and do so simply for corporate profits.  We’ve forgotten that it’s the small, concrete changes we can make that make the biggest difference.

Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott

A book on the art of writing, Lamott delivers advice and mindsets meant to help writers who struggle to get their words down on the page.  She is extremely funny and gives the good advice of taking things in small bits.  Don’t sit down to write your whole novel, just sit down to describe what could fit in one “picture frame.”  I’ve struggled recently to make time for my own writing, and I think rereading this might be a good way to motivate myself to create that time.

Ways of Seeing by John Berger

This is a strange one.  Mentioned in a youtube video by Contrapoints, this is a short collection of both written and pictorial essays that make a variety of points about how we see the world.  From the way that photography has fundamentally altered our society’s conception of reality, to the way art views women, to the strange similarities between the representation of women and food in advertising, this collection makes us think about the medium of the visual and the ways in which art creates or is created by our reality.

The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida

I’ve been looking for a book for men about how to make romantic and sexual connections with women that doesn’t have any of the trappings of patriarchy or misogyny.  I’m working on a writing project to this effect myself, and I wanted to make sure that I was doing the proper research into existing books on this or related topics.  This probably comes the closest I’ve seen thus far, though it has a kind of different focus than my own project.

Deida takes a spiritual approach to sexual attraction: speaking of attraction coming from the polarity of masculine & feminine energies.  Much of the advice that springs from this point of view will be helpful to many men: dropping neediness, being comfortable with your own energy, recognizing the kind of support your lover needs may be different from what you need, etc. , but I think it also lacks a certain social awareness.  Men following this advice could become excellent, confident lovers, but they could also fall into some toxic patterns.  I think the spirituality aspect probably does shield many men from falling into those traps, but I think a number could also slip through.

The 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene

Started reading this one along with How to Win Friends and Influence People in an attempt to be thinking about the rules/dynamics of human interaction.  I was happily surprised that this book lives up to its hype.  Under the guise of being a guide to principles of power dynamics, it contains a treasure trove of historical and fictional stories about human engagements and interactions.  I really enjoyed reading this and would recommend it to people just from the writing and storytelling alone.


I will say that I had my reservations about the ethical values of this book.  The author makes an argument that, essentially, one can never truly sit apart from the games of power in human relations as it is simply in our nature.  From that premise, it is always better to be able to deftly handle power than to be inept and bungle it.  I sort of half-accept this argument.  Some of the examples, I think, are obviously unethical, but I believe that the author is at least right that it is important to understand how others might be attempting to attain power even if you decline to use all of the strategies yourself.

The Game by Neil Strauss

Another piece of research for my own writing, I had a lot of preconceptions about this book that did not turn out to be accurate.  Back when it was first released, there was a lot of controversy around it.  This book brought the frequently misogynistic Pick-Up Artist community into the limelight, and it was condemned for doing so.  But the book itself doesn’t exactly espouse these misogynistic views as I’d heard.  Strauss sees many of the problems his new mindsets cause him and those around him and actively dislikes the more misogynistic, manipulative characters in the community around him.

Strauss’s book is more important than ever in this age of MGTOW, Incels, and Red Pills.  Many men in the modern age live in sexual, emotional, and intimate scarcity and only by talking honestly about these issues and bringing these things to light will we be able to heal.

Doors of Perception & Heaven and Hell by Aldous Huxley

Huxley writes about his experiences with Mescaline and other psychedelics.  He talks about their ability to allow us to access parts of our brains which are normally locked away, and he talks about them in the context of understanding spirituality, madness, and religious experience.  Very well-written and short: these were incredibly influential essays when they were written and once again are becoming relevant with the reemergence of psychedelic research for therapeutic purposes.  Required reading for anyone interested in psychedelics or psychology.

Travel Reading List

Since I’ve been telling everyone who asks me what I did on my trip that I read a lot, I thought I might as well justify that statement with a list of the books I read during my trip.  I decided to also use this as an opportunity to write down a few thoughts about them as both a historical record for myself if I ever go back to these books and a conversation starter for others who have read them.  So, enjoy.

TL;DR: Go read Too Loud a Solitude and The Power of Now

Why Work? Various Authors

A great way to start off a sabbatical.  This collection of essays delves into the concept of work from both a historical and philosophical standpoint.  Ranging from a discussion of the value of not working, to the regimentation and measurement of time, to the value of truly fulfilling work.  In my mind, this book does a good job of exposing how unhealthy our culture’s approach to work is and of how we’ve been struggling with this for quite a long time.

Everything is Obvious: *Once you know the answer Watts J.Duncan

A discussion of some logical fallacies regarding our explanation of events in the world around us.  Oftentimes, when explaining why something happened, we end up merely explaining what something was.  For example, if we say that a movie was successful because it had good character development and cool action scenes, does that really explain why it was successful or merely describe the movie?  This book gives some strong evidence that most post-hoc explanation is highly suspect.

Kathmandu Thomas Bell

An interesting look at the city of Kathmandu from a journalist who spent a few years there.  This book opened my eyes to the corruption of the Foreign Aid Industry and the problems it causes.  It has me wanting to learn more about neocolonialism and investigate further how foreign aid may be serving to maintain the status quo instead of improving things.

A Short History of Nearly Everything Bill Bryson

While a bit overly focused on western science to warrant the title, this book does a fairly good job of running through our current understanding of the science of our earth and universe.  Not being personally very interested in geology or paleontology, I thought the book did a good job of making those topics more interesting to me by focusing on the people involved in those sciences.  Also, if you suffer from bad anxiety, you may want to steer clear of this book.  A sizable portion of the book discusses all the ways that the world could end at any second.

Many Lives, Many Masters Brian Weiss

An interesting account of a psychotherapist performing past-life therapy.  I’d be interested to hear about more research into this topic.  The author showed a defensiveness of his scientific qualifications that felt insecure.  I think a single section addressing this would be reasonable given the topic matter, but it was a recurring theme throughout the book: like the author couldn’t believe his own experiences, which now that I think about it, might have been the point.

Dracula Bram Stoker

We’re all familiar with this classic monster story, but how many of us have actually read it?  This book thoroughly exceeded my expectations, doing an amazing job using the diary structure and creating a truly mysterious and suspenseful atmosphere.  For some reason I expected it to be a stodgy book whose fame came from its movie and other adaptations, but it’s actually good in its own right!  The one thing I will say is that it’s age definitely shows in regards to its treatment of women and foreign cultures.

Too Loud a Solitude Bohumil Hrabal

I cannot recommend this highly enough!  This novela details the story of a wastepaper disposer who collects rare and banned books in Soviet-era Prague.  I don’t want to say anymore.  Go read it!

I Served the King of England Bohumil Hrabal

Another book by Hrabal, this details the life of a waiter throughout the changes in Czechoslovakia post WWII.  In this story, it almost feels like the protagonist is being driven by his life instead of the other way around.  It follows some interesting changes in his life and ends with him coming to a reckoning with the very fact of his nonagency.  Not as powerful as Too Loud a Solitude but still enjoyable.

An Introduction to Political Philosophy Jonathan Wolff

Saw this in a bookstore and realized this was a topic that I wanted to know more about.  A big takeaway of this book for me was that unlike other forms of philosophy, which can be safely ignored by most people, political philosophy and politics in general should be topics of interest to everyone.  If you don’t take interest in making political decisions, other people will be more than happy to make them for you!

My Grandmother Asked Me to Tell You She’s Sorry Fredrik Backman

A cute, adventurous, and emotionally powerful story of a little girl dealing with the death of her grandmother.  Does a really good job of dealing with complex relationships and making authentic characters with strengths and flaws.  This is really good!

Britt-Marie Was Here Fredrik Backman

A spinoff story of one of the characters from My Grandmother Asked Me to Tell You She’s Sorry, this book explores the transformative power of belonging and community. This author does a really good job with characters, emotions, and relationships, and I definitely recommend this one.

The Power of Now Eckhart Tolle

This book had a profound effect on the way I view myself, time, and reality.  Cliche/mainstream as it is, it helped me get a handle on some of the existential problems that plagued me and pointed me towards a new way forward.  That said, the most powerful stuff in the book is in the first half.  The second half seemed to get a little mystical and hand-wavy.  Maybe I’d have a different feeling on a second reading.

You Are Here Thich Nhat Hanh

A good book to pair with The Power of Now, if the two were a good-cop-bad-cop duo, this would be the good cop.  Where The Power of Now comes across strong, appealing to the intellect and understanding, this holds your hand and guides you towards strategies of centering and self-love.  Perhaps less likely to bring about a radical paradigm shift, I still highly recommend this as a book for building self-compassion and self-love.

The Social Construction of Reality Peter L. Berger and Thomas Luckmann

If all knowledge is socially constructed and any person’s reality is built from the knowledge they have of its workings, then reality itself must be socially constructed.  This book presents and then explores the idea that our view of the world is constructed by the society in which we live.  It convincingly explores the function of various social institutions within this framework and how they can grow, evolve, and take on a life of their own.  While reading this book isn’t necessary, understanding the theory it expounds is more or less essential to understanding the last 50 years of sociology, philosophy, anthropology, critical theory, race and gender studies, and probably 10 other fields I can’t name.  This theory is criminally undertaught outside of those fields.

The Way of Zen Alan Watts

It was pretty trippy to be reading this simultaneously with The Social Construction of Reality.  Zen deals with the very nature of reality itself and our apprehension of it.  1500 years before sociology understood it, Zen understood that our names for things are not the things themselves.  If we understand this, we begin to be able to see through the illusory world we’ve created for ourselves.  Alan Watts is famous for making eastern philosophy more understandable and approachable for western audiences.  While I have no doubt that some things are lost in translation, I would still highly recommend this book.

The Golden Compass Philip Pullman

I kept seeing ads for Philip Pullman’s new book in bookstores in London, so I thought that I might as well read this fairly popular series.  I definitely found some of the ideas interesting but had trouble getting really into it.  I can’t say exactly why, but I suspect it would have been more appealing to me when I was younger.  I enjoyed it, but wouldn’t say it was amazing.

The Three-Body Problem Liu Cixin

I was impressed by how well this sci-fi book incorporated modern scientific theories into its story.  Maybe not quite as deftly as The Forever War handles relativity, but still well.  I definitely enjoyed this story but felt like something was off with the pacing.  I wonder if this might have to do with stylistic differences between western and Chinese novels?  Either way, it has me intrigued to read the sequels and see how this world develops.

The Elegant Universe Brian Greene

While much of this book goes into depth discussing String and M-Theory, I found the real gold to be its overview of Relativity and Quantum Mechanics.  Greene does a good job of explaining those topics in an intuitive way.  The sections on String Theory are a bit harder to read, but still interesting, only occasionally getting bogged down by difficult-to-follow details.  Overall, I would say this is a good layman’s introduction to the topic.

The Righteous Mind Jonathan Haidt

This book seems to me to have two main parts: first, it posits something called Moral Foundations Theory, basically trying to group moral questions and ideas into five or six main categories, and second, it deals with the purpose of morals in human group formation and cohesion.  This book has me feeling divided.  The basic premise of Moral Foundations Theory feels strong, but the way it gets fleshed out feels flawed and the conclusions drawn from the research, at least as presented in the book, feel unwarranted.  Still, the basic idea of the theory feels useful and important, and the second half of the book concerning “groupishness” is spot on.